Summer's End
Posted by foreverjakers | Posted in | Posted on 11:53 AM
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School starts in eight days, summer vacation ends in seven.
Despite the fact that I've had two and a half months to prepare myself for this, I'm still not ready for Junior year. I'm not ready for all the PSAT and SAT crap we're about to go through. I'm not ready to suddenly focus on college tuitions and expenses. I'm not ready for any of what might happen this year at all. And the fact that it's hitting me just now that I only have one year of high school left seems oddly surreal. But whether I'm (or anyone else) ready or not, it's happening.
So what proof do I have to prove to myself that I've actually experienced these past few months instead of thinking that I'm in some coma imagining this all up? Memories of a sky set ablaze by the sun dipping beneath the horizon. Train tracks with apple-throwing-hobos nearby. 20,001 mosquito bites. Two days away from Portland. One case of massive sunburn. One lovely Thursday. A summer youth metro-bus pass. A job at Hot topic. A five minute water balloon fight. A new formation of friends, and the tossing aside of an old one.
I've learned quite a bit despite not being in school for two and a half months. I've learned what it's like to have people who say they'll be there for you and actually mean it. I've learned that you can't go wrong with a few trips to McDonald's (hey, we're teenagers, our metabolism is still pretty high-so why not?). That the library is a pretty decent place to take refuge, and that Starbucks Coffee cans are pretty effective when used to kill giant spiders. The thing is, I don't want to let this all go. To suddenly be all "Oh, school has started, time to forget about this shit." So I don't think I will. Just because I'm not ready for school to start, doesn't mean I'm going to ignore this past summer. It doesn't mean I'll forget what I've learned, what I've gone through, what I've done. It just adds up to how much I've changed.
[Forever, Jakers]
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